::bEez Hives

Thursday, July 22, 2004
bEez Hives 17

wahahax..so fast wed le..tmr thurs..gonna hab t** again..sianx sia..hMmmm..got moi new phone..by rite i shld be happi rite?..butt dunno y jus feel nth lor..a new phone den new phone lor..hahx..hmM..haix..spend some time exploring it..mi realise mi dunno hw to use sia..duhz..bTh..hmmm..tHx moi papa for tt phone..600 bucks leh..feel so bad..haix..mi feel even bad is moi mama stil usin 3310 lor..by right moi tt 2100 is moi mama de..butt she jus bought and i took it to use..den use til nw..den nw i change..she nv even get to use tt 2100 lor..haix..feel so bad..nw de pro is moi cousin gonna hab moi old 2100 lor..she pri 5 nia..den hab phone le..bTh her sia..hmM..how sia..feel so bad abt de phone tingy lor..den moi papa oso order a cake for mi..haix..mi feel so..haix..dunno hw to sae..he ask wanna celebrate..den mi sae nvm lar..dun need..feel so bad to sae tt man..arg!!..haix..feel so sad sia..butt tink of shun hong..kinda funni lor..hahx..his attitude beri cute sia..keke..so lame sia..bTh him lar..lame de..keep gib mi name..liew..hmM..haix..wad he doin nw? c him online..den bz again..haix..wad is dis..?..can anyone tel mi..!..feel so sad..saded sia..

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Thursday, July 15, 2004
bEez Hives 16

one day pass...liew..in sch study study study lor..kinda sianx sia..haix..bo mood..kao bei..i failed moi ss test..dotx..8/25 nia..NVm..i promise to do well in all other tests next time..muz promote to sec 4 next year..I DUN CARE..i WIL WORK HARD..do all my hw..study hard..can't let my parents..my frens..and MYSELF down..hahx..sae easy lar..do hard..=x ..today taf..duhx..run lo..den saw yin and shi ling..they wait for mi..touch..den dong..ser and ching..den go out of sch together..den ser and shi ling go home..de rest go west mall..den pei dong wait bus..den i go home lor..haix..reach home jiu sianx le..a|one ma..haix..like shit sia..no pple to tok..realli lor..feel mi so lonely sia..need pple tok..no hab..anything..mi face myself..got problem..settle by my own..StreSs..arg..c his nick again..online..away..busy..argg..i goin NUT soon..wad hab i done to deserve all dis treatment?..can ANYONE Tel mi..!!!..i can't take it anymore..wo yao siao le..lalalalalala...hope tmr wil be a betta day..buTt i doUbt so lor..haix..KAO bEi..cB..knN..KnS..smLJ...blah blah blah...

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Wednesday, July 14, 2004
bEez Hives 15

dotx...good day..NV go SCH..sooo song..bUTt sianx1/2..mi overslp yi dian dian..den cal moi mama sae i late le..so might as well mai go lor..den go back zzz..den go c doc..anyway got a bit sick oso lar..too stress ba..stress dis stress tt..haix..papa cal mi..sae get de phone..den ask mi go take..he buy 600 plus..nt sure oso..EX lar..liew..mi afternoon online..no pple de..all in sch wad..den tok to kor kor..he ask mi muz go sch..mai pon..muz pass..haix..suddenly tink of wad huixin tel mi oso..she wan mi promise her to study hard and get out of sch..cannot quit..haix..FAN..saw his nick...he away..wonder wad he doin..haix..ta de lian mi jian jian goin to forget le..soo long nv c him..haix..jus nw c vammy de blog..den get to noe smth abt him..failure sia..hab to noe abt him through pple de blog..noe wad he doin laterly..all not he tel mi himself..ALL IS I C PPLE DE BLOG NOE de..HAHAHAHAHAHX...zuo pple de stead..zuo til so si bai...wad is DIS...fark up sia..zuo ren zuo so long..den realise smth..yuan lai mi like no hab real fren..wad is dis..liFe?..y moi life so DOTX de..goin to break dwn soon..beri fan..are we goin to break?..end likedat?..i dun wan..haix..butt i seems to hab no choice ba..he is either busy or away..if he online..less than 5 min..go back to busy or away again...wahahahax...WAHAHAHAHAHAX...I BWGX..wo zhen de lei le..maybe all my fault ba..i shld contact him oso..butt hw?..i dunno wad to sae..i everytime wil send him forward msg..butt no reply..den suan le..dunno how oso..he dun like to sms..how..mi oso bo bian le..walk yi bu..count yi bu ba..

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Tuesday, July 13, 2004
bEez Hives 14

i'm SAD..real SAD..nw 11.26pm listenin to F.I.R songs..haix..forget moi username..sUx sia..den wait wait..finalli got moi username..haix..today 13/7.. he realli dun remb yesterday..we duno hw long nv contact le..goin one month liao..likedat wo man suan wad..stead?..hahx..soo funni..biggest joke i ever hear..yesterday i nv feel anything..cos i noe the result wil be liekdat..i realli dunno wad he doin dis past few weeks..i start to lose faith and hope..i realli dunno wad to do..in sch nearly cry out..cos tt sia.. keep sae retain stuffs..like shootin mi...hear liao damn UNCOMFORTABLE.. a lot of tings pple dun understand..i myself noe jiu hao..i happi or nt..i myself noe jiu hao.. when i'm sad..wher r u?..i noe i can live by myself..i can be independent..i need no one..tt's mi..i muz be strong..butt for now..i realli can't.. i did smth stupid today..haix..make spoil shir de bag..duhz..paiseh..dun mean it sia..feel so gulity..haix..BWgx..den i diam diam all de way..dunno wad to sae..den feel so lost oso..so i walk away sadly..walk home..tink lots of tings..wad can i do to stop all dis..haix..feel so tired tinkin wad u tinkin..wad u doin..wad u wan..?..BERI sick le..haix..SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD..slowly turn to depression..bwgx..papa buy mi 6230 for moi bday..he sae wil send over a few days later..i feel nth when i hear tt..maybe to sad le..bUtt i feel smth..tt is de phone cos 700 plus lo..bEri EX sia..haix..anyway thx papa for ur present..wil treasure it de...y ting turn out to be likedat..y y y y y y y y y y y y...millions of WHYs...93days.. haix..i am a FAILURE foreva....

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Sunday, July 11, 2004
bEez Hives 13

hahx..finali got time to update again..so fast sunday liao..tmr 12/7/04 le..3 months..tink he dun remb ba..suan..hMm..yesterday when to chinatown wif yin..shir..and ser..bUy cD..wahahahx..soo cHeAp..7 bucks nia..mi buy F.I.R and zhuo chuan xiong..NICE man..KEep lISten Lor..i LoVe F.I.R..tHEy Rox Man..hmm..den walk ard lO..after tt..went west mall to eat..wanna eat pizza hut de..end up ser mai..she bu she de..den go eat other lo..den saw linzhe..he went for de concert at west mall..band de..mi cai lan de go..c band onli one feelin..SIANX..keke..eat finish already 10pm liao lo..den went mos burger to chill..tok cock lo..hab fuN sEh..den brian come dwn..hahax..linzhe tel mi abt shun hong..wahaha..linzhe sae shun hong tel him he onli c mi smile 2 times nia..wahahx..we tok tok tok til 10.45 likedat..muz go home le..if mama wil kb..den reach home..moi ku ku and moi hse..kao..she come in herself man..she got key ma..liew..BWgx..tink moi hse wad..Hotel ar..den i use net lo..saw shun hong..den i ask him..when i smile de..he sae 7/7 and 10/7..hahx..he stil remb sia.. =x..wahahhax..hMM..den tok cock wif pple lo..den he online..den bz again..haix..dunno lar..den offline..conference lo..awhile..brian and ching both zzzz sia..liew..den i hang up go zzz oso lo..wahahaax..den today 7 plus wake up..chiong to moi ah ma hse..moi uncle come fetch mi and moi mama lo..go his hse there..her daughter engage ceremony ma..wahahahx..so romantic sia..i there blow bubbles..=x..lame rite..den at there til 12 plus..den come home lo..sianx lor..mi at there..mi tink a lot of ting..mi wanna be PuNk hOuSeWifE..wahahahx..den i sms dong..ser..ching and brian..hahax..ching sae wait next time moi lao gong bth mi sia..weddin on techno hor..wahaha..LAmE Lor..hahax..mi beri tired sia..wait watch tv 130 to 2.30 den do hw den slp sia..bth MaN..haix..beri sad..keep listen to F.I.R de song..dotx sia..mi yesterday band..yi dian mood oso no hab..damn pek chek..den keep tink of him nia..y he liekdat..haix.."WHY..WHY..WHY..WHY..?..tel mi WHY!"...dis few days mani ting happen sia..feel beri stress..everytime feel stress realli feel like smoking man..dunno y..wan drink oso..hahx..jsu nw at de ceremony there got get to drink sia..hahx..mOi mood unstable sia..can change REAL fast..BEwArE Of MI sIa..haix..too mani ting to be sae..betta leave if unsae..haix..watch tv le..miSS him..91days

Quotes of de day:if i tel u that there's a billion stars in the sky and u believed, will u believe if i say i love you..

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Monday, July 05, 2004
bEez Hives 12

hahax..today hab lots of fun seh..buy a voodoo t-shirt..happi..butt moi main aim is buy bag de..those damn big,punk and cool de...wahahax..bUTt nv find any..nvm lar..stil got time..slowly..hMM..mi afternoon go find ser..den lend her $50..den she buy shoes..den shir and yin and ching come..ching oso buy..den buy finish we went town..go far east lo..song..walk here and there..den luff and hab fun..hMM..shir okie liao..cos sat tt time..BIG ting happen seh..she damn unhappi..den like mi hai de..wah..mi nearly bwgx seh..all oso fault..den all push to moi..tel lin zhe..he sae smth to mi..he sae mi cal u da jie is nt for nth de..cos i seem like a leader to him..can settle ting for them..so all tel mi their problem..ya lar..butt i'm nt wu di de..can't settle everyting ma..haix..myself got lots of problem to settle oso..love for example..=x..haix..dunno hw oso..everytime act so happi like nth..actually damn sad..no one noes nia..haix..mi feel smth beri bad..tt is i scold moi mama..she realli dote mi alot..den someting..i realli beri wad..keep tok back den she oso nt happi..butt i noe she beri dote wo alot..worry abt mi ma..she moi mama wad..hahax..i LOve Moi mAmA..hMM..every nw and den moi mind keep flash dis.."y he likedat?..are we goin to end soon?..we nv contact for beri long le..realli beri long le..he fall for other ger?..mi pei bu shang ta..?..haix.."..goin mad..mi such a failure seh..tot i wil nt be a failure again..yet i am a failure in de end..last time is jun xian..i treat him like duno wad..den nw bao ying liao lo..tio de same treatment liao..haix..dunno lar..nw onli can pray hard..i dunno hw to tel him..wait he nt happi..haix..nw i cannot do anything oso..nw more impt is moi family..frens..treasure everi min and sec i hab wif moi frens..cos they r leavin soon..haix..go other sch lar..*saded..sobz..remb jus nw got shir a cake..cheese de leh..den got candle..i take frm B1 to level 4 lo..pple all look at mi..scare i burn them..=x..wahaha..LAme..hmM..k lar..stop here..gonna do hw le..miss him lotssss...haix..no words can describe moi feelin nw..damn sux..dun wanna go sch oso..so bored and sianx..tmr gonna start moi plan le..run wif lin zhe tmr..hope i can endure to de end..yeah..diet rulezzz...

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix

Friday, July 02, 2004
bEez Hives 11

hahx..today time pass beri de fast seh..sOng sEh..hmM..slp ard 1 plus..den 2 plus wake up off radio..den slp back den.. hear smth..guess wad...rAiNing Lor..raining so heavily..den i bian slp bian tink reason to pon sch..end up mi nv pon lar..wake up change..chiong to sch..hMMm..so song..yesterday rain..today oso rain..den dun need sit carpark..shuai seh..dun need tio check hair oso..wahahx..den i in class faster chiong moi band t design..quite happi wif it..wahahax..i draw de ma..=x.. hMM..den d n t lesson..SIANX1/2..chen min nt here..sianx..den i 4 periods dunno shld do wad seh..den i do moi holi ass finish..den do moi band t design again..hmM..den i suddenly tink of new design for moi digital clock..i Love moi idea man..hOpe can success lo..gonna draw and prepare lots of tings..hmMm eng tio scold..nt mi lar..wahahax..other pple..Ong scold til so fierce..den recess..den math lo..another ong come in again..wahaha..she oso scold..haha..oso nt mi again..hahax..den dismiss..butt Tt yeN cOme in..sianx..do filing do so slow..den 1.15pm den release us..hmM..dong and ser waitin for mi outside..dunno y..feel damn pek chek lo..cos tt ken boi lar..dunno luff simi..den i dulan..scold him..=x..den he stop..hmM..go dwn to canteen..damn dulan..hMM..den start do moi chinese..cHIong!!..mOk coMe coLlect lo..i hab nth to hand up to her..wahahx..HEck lar..wait for chen min..hmM..den 2 fall in lo..i dulan so scold whole band..den wanna pump them..butt nv..den julian come..sae hoe sick..so cancel..wahaha..song..no band..butt dong they all hab math test..ching hab oral..den i wait lo..while waitin..decide de band t design..hab fun seh..keep tok rubbish wad..end up do nth nia..den they dismiss le..tok cock in sch again..wahaha..lAme lO..den shir went home alone..i send her go take cab seh..wei da ba.!..den go west mall as usual..den go home lo..7.30 likedat reach home..lie on bed zzzz...den mama cal..den faster wake up and bath..den watch tv..den eat oso..hMm..tmr goin for SYF openin..dunno wan go nt..ser and ching bo hab tickets leh..arggg..haiyo..gonna chiong moi chinese file le..if nt mok wan kb liao..tmr last time hand up..wahahahx..jus nw tok to jun xian kor..wahaha..lame seh..quite fun lo..tok cock ma..hmM..k lar..make file liao..

Quotes of de day:One word frees us of all the weight and pain in life. That word is love..(bUllshit sEH..=x)

bEexlurvehamSter

millions of "why"
wondering endlessly in moi mind...
i jus wanna get into ur mind and unzip all the whys...haix